I couldn't sleep well last night, i feel miserable like i was casts from within. Thinkin' of what will happen when ill talk. i don't want to..i need to so that , i just don't know. i just haven't found the perfect words to say or i'm a little bit afraid of you. would you talk to me too? maybe this is not so good at all. i'll probably shut up.

Saw her again. Those crystal eyes and kissable lips,wanting to hold her and press her chest unto mine, feel her warmth embrace and taste those sweet lips. She is my dreams, dreams that i don't want to wake up. She doesn't know and i don't want her to know either. Let it be this way so our friendship would last. Sweet dreams..

Your words can be just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
But the words just disappear
'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

So I speak to you in riddles 
'Cause my words get in my way. 
I smoke the whole thing to my head 
And feel it wash away 
'Cause I can't take anymore of this, 
I wanna come apart, 
or dig myself a little hole 
Inside your precious heart

I am nothing more than 
A little boy inside
That cries out for attention,
yet I always try to hide
'Cause I talk to you like children,
Though I don't know how I feel
But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed.

Imagine being a rich, successful person, top of your game, in almost everything. You can have what you want in your life including me. I know you have deep secrets from your past, wouldn't it be more interesting if you share it with me..you are so cruel, so selfish and extremely dangerous in any kind.

But your secrets safe with me girl, you can count on me. I know your life at the top is so fucking dull, am i right? so fucking what. Who cares? 

I know the answer, try to follow me and just drink a cup of tea. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MS91knuzoOA

This song is for you.

You know I'm a dreamer
But my heart's of gold
I had to run away high
So I wouldn't come home low 

Just when things went right
Doesn't mean they were always wrong
Just take this song and you'll never feel
Left all alone

Take me to your heart
Feel me in your bones
Just one more night
And I'm comin' off this
Long & winding road

I'm on my way
Home sweet home

Don't remember where I was
I realized life was a game
The more seriously I took things
The harder the rules became
I had no idea what it'd cost
My life passed before my eyes
I found out how little I accomplished
All my plans denied

So as you read this know my friends
I'd love to stay with you all
please smile when you think of me
My body's gone that's all ...